Hello 2012, we meet at last.

Apologies if this post is a little wonky. The new year has brought with it antidepressant #4 and I’m still adjusting to it. I am now trying rather hard to do that not-make-spelling-mistakes thing and whoooo concentration is not so easy as it usually is. Luckily today is the day that I also discovered the TV series Sherlock, which I picked out because I am terribly superficial and I’d rather like to marry someone with Benedict Cumberback’s hair. Er. Distracted.

Here’s what’s been happening lately:

• Loxamine gave me a list of things that left me disgruntled. Or a similar rumbling word with a g in it. At any rate, it wasn’t not brain-giving and made me a trifle of a zombie.
• I’m now on escitalopram, a newer form of citalopram. My doctor was perplexed at how I’m not finding my soul mate of antidepressants and called a psychiatrist friend, who promptly suggested escitalopram. Incidentally it was something I’d found via internet sleuthing that I was going to ask her about anyway! I should do psychiatry.
• It’s currently day 3 and HOLY WOAHHH I am dizzy. All the time. Not enough to faint but enough to be annoying. Makes walking and standing up particularly impossible. I get tingles through my arms and sometimes my chin is numb, it’s really fun. I also get crazy awesome dreams every night and Mum says I sparkle more so that’s gooooooood. Hoping it settles down and becomes friends with my brain.

Since it’s so difficult to concentrate I decide it was a perfect time to write a blog post. QUALITY BLOGGING.

Happy new year! I made resolutions.

• Less Coke. Think of all the money I’ll save! I’ll try to solely be a social drinker, although having said that I just know that I’ll whisk away my beloved Coke and sit in the corner telling it sweet nothings, instead of actually talking to people.
• Budgeting. Ughh, I have terrible saving habits. My thinking goes like this: “I won’t be destitute if I buy this! Do itttttt!”, followed by some ridiculous justification. The plan is to save for a specific thing before buying it, even if I know I already have the money. First on the list is a US$385 Minifee Chloe (shut up!), so hopefully that’ll teach me the “value of a dollar”.
• I will go see a therapist to keep me in check and make sure I don’t rock on back to crazy town.
• Get down to pre-crazy town weight. Turns out certain antidepressants are worse for my belly than eating like this whilst in the throes of depression.
• I will become a sewing superstar! There aren’t many clothes available guaranteed to fit Iplehouse JIDs, so if I can start like a fashion chain of doll clothing for them that’d be mint. ;D
• I want to learn real photography. I’m going to take more photos, practise, practise, practise! Only when I can take decent pictures will I travel overseas. I know you’re suposed to concentrate on “living in the moment” when out travelling, but I live to record and write about things, so.
• Donate blood as often as I can.
• Stay in uni for an entire semester. Maybe even two!
• When writing something that I can recognise as being the early scribbles of a blog post, I’ll set a deadline. If only you knew how many drafts I throw away because I left them for too long and forgot what I was going to say…!

I’m also going to pat more cats… but that’s kind of a given.